So technically it's a start of the new year of 2011. Many people are starting with new resolutions, promises and intentions with determinations to follow through it. I read quite a few blogs showing what their resolutions and the regrets they had in 2010. I was surprised somewhat and encouraged by people who wrote in their blogs about the past events in 2010 and did not realise I make such a positive impact to a person that much in their ups and downs incidents and events in their life.
I do not think that my presence, advise, guidance (maybe?) and all the stuff I did for the people I care about had such an impact on their life. All the things I did and done for you guys are insignificant and petty compared to others I feel personally.
Do I have any resolutions for 2011? Or do I have any regrets in 2010? Truthfully, I don't know. All the events in 2010 seems to be a blur and happened so fast that I was quite taken back that it was already 31st of December 2010 and the year 2011 has come. All I can say are that there were events that were ups and downs that has made me cry and laugh in 2010.
There were definitely events that I wish I could turn back time and undone what I have done so that the mistake or incident did not occur, especially the one where I had lost a good friend because of my mistake and forgetfulness. I truthfully cried wondering was the action I had done was the fault? I could not forgive myself still and hopefully time can only make it seem far away.
I can never forget it and truly do not wish so as a reminder not to ever let it happen again to anyone I care about. I am thankful that I have friends who in some way or other back me up and actually boost up my self-confidence in some matters which I personally feel I lack most.
Truthfully I am happy that I have made many friends in the year of not 2010 only but starting from when I entered Ngee Ann polytechnic. I am blessed with such amazing and stupendous friends who leave me laughing like a mad person and amazed at their capabilities.
Although people has mentioned countless times that I am such a good, kind (don't think so myself) and consider themselves lucky to have known me and be my friend, I think otherwise. I feel that I myself am very lucky to have known the friends I have made in Singapore and being regarded as a friend. All the times that we spend together all seem like precious gems of memories in my life and will not ever be forgotten ever.
Although pictures speak a thousand words as quoted, and is sometimes used to be memories of events and things we share about, I don't feel I have the privilege of being in the picture as I always deem myself to be the stranger in the photo and not fit in. I know it sounds stupid but it's an obstacle I am trying to face. ( idiot right?)
Therefore all I can say for 2011 that there will be more memories that can be created, shared together and be treasured, I wish for all the best for the people I care about that there will be less dark and shadow times for you guys and more happiness will be spread around. To all couples who are "official" or not, I wish to you to be happy together and have great time together :p To all my friends, I am grateful for what you done to me by just being my friend, and to my family and loved ones, I wish them happiness, longevity, and good health in 2011.
HAPPY NEW YEAR I say once again.. :D
